Category Archives: Random Thoughts and Feelings

Have A Laugh

Good morning WP!
Does anyone else like Family Feud? Read and watch, it’s hilarious!

http://m.eonline.com/news/698271/hilarious-family-feud-answer-leaves-steve-harvey-speechless-watch-now

Hmm, I would love it if there was a kink addition of the show. Just a thought…LOL!

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Too Many Thoughts, Too Many Feelings

I realize that it has been kind of quiet here lately. I started off writing out my deepest thoughts and feelings but now I feel stuck. Ever had so much on your mind, so much on your heart that you feel the desire to write, but as soon as you begin, every thought and emotion becomes jumbled together? Well, that is how I’ve been feeling for the past few months. Maybe it’s some kind of crazy writer’s block.
How many times will I type and erase, type and erase, type and erase? How many unfinished drafts will sit untouched and unposted because of my jumbled state of mind? Too many thoughts, too many feelings, how does one fix this problem?

I’m not searching for a voice of reason. Just venting I guess. BUT if anyone happens to have some advice, please don’t hesitate to comment.

My Birthday

I meant to post this yesterday. June 21st was the first official day of summer. It was also my birthday. ☺

Not really a big fan of chocolate but my mom bought it for me. It was delicious! I think my mom may have added her love to it. 😍

I got these from my dad. He and I have been trying to rebuild our relationship these past two or three years. I’ve had too many birthdays without him, so it was nice to spend most of my BDay weekend with him. 😀

Last but not least…

I love wine. Need I say more?

I hope the pictures post. Fingers crossed please. Thanks for letting me share.

Monday Morning Rant

So I found this in my email inbox this morning. I was very tempted to post the link but that would probably make me look like an instigator, which is not my intention. However, I will share a quote because this is my space to write my feelings out.

“Do you think that it is necessary or perhaps more fitting for your daughter/little girl to be in a specific (actual) age range and/or in a specific range of body types?

I’ve seen so many daughters/babygirls that I just can’t take seriously..I understand that it is roleplay and we’re not looking for an actual baby, nor looking for an actual underage teen girl BUT, quite frankly, an obese babygirl/daughter is not at all credible in my eyes, neither is a 40/50 yo. playing little girl. In my opinion there must be some physical/age standards too (and mind that the range I find likable is quite wide). Am I alone in this thought? I think daughters/babygirls would be laughing in your face if you’re younger, smaller and weaker and shorter than your girl and you want her to call you daddy, it’s ridiculous.”

This is disgusting behavior to me! It is okay for one to have preferences but it is not okay to be rude and to invalidate someone because you say they cannot be a ____ because they don’t meet your ridiculous standards for what is and isn’t acceptable.

1. “I’ve seen so many daughters/babygirls that I just can’t take seriously.”

It bothers me when terms like daughter and son are used to refer to the caretaker/little dynamic because it implies that people in these dynamics have incestuous desires. Words like babygirl or babyboy are more like terms of endearment in my opinion.

2. “I understand that it is roleplay…”

For many caretakers/littles, including myself, this is not role play. It is a part of who we are.

3. “…an obese babygirl/daughter is not at all credible in my eyes, neither is a 40/50 yo. playing little girl.”

Why not? Babygirls/babyboys and littles come in all ages and sizes and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Apparently someone is paying too much attention to outside appearances, rather than what really matters, the heart. I expect nothing less from someone so shallow. By the way, this guy is 25. Some people around my age have a lot of growing up to do. But then, ignorance and immaturity come in all ages.

4. “I think daughters/babygirls would be laughing in your face if you’re younger, smaller and weaker and shorter than your girl and you want her to call you daddy, it’s ridiculous.”

No, people who know better will be laughing in your face when they see how ridiculous you are. Oh and, keep insulting people if you want them to take you seriously. That’s the way to build meaningful friendships and long-lasting relationships. Note the sarcasm.

Okay, I am finished ranting.

Tired

Okay, so I know that not all of this post is D/s related but it’s what I am feeling and I felt like writing.

I am tired.

I am tired of trying to resolve conflict between family and friends. I am tired of constantly having to put up walls to protect my heart. I am tired of being misunderstood. I am tired of being betrayed by so called friends. I am tired of hiding behind forced laughter and smiles. I am tired of feeling alone here.

I am tired of the constant strain of seeing my grandparents struggle with health issues. I am tired of not always being able to protect my precious cat when evil lurks in the shadows. I am tired of financial problems. I am tired of dealing with legal issues.

I am tired of maintaining the persona that society sees; it is not who I am. I am tired of keeping my true nature a secret from those who should, but will not except my lifestyle choices. I am tired of not being able to cuddle up with Daddy A whenever I would like to. I am tired of not being able to kneel at his feet when I need to.

I am tired of being so close, yet so far away from all that I desire right now.