So far, the majority of people I have come across in the D/s community are either looking for, or already a part of a poly relationship. Some seem very happy. Others not so much. On quite a few occasions I had the chance to talk to people who were in poly relationships. The conversations were great because I was able to understand their views and why that type of relationship worked for them. But at some point in my pursuit of knowledge, I had to stop and ask myself some of the same questions I had been asking them. It is clear to me now more than ever that I cannot do poly.
Yes, I am a sub. Yes, love and relationships can exist in many different forms. Yes, I do trust my Sir but that’s just it. He is MY SIR.
It would be a lie to say that I would not be jealous. I would not be comfortable knowing that the reason my Daddy Dom was not with me, was because he was with another. The thought of some other girl intimately hugging
pleasing my Sir, my Daddy…
It irks me.
No, it would not help to think of the other woman as a sister. To me a sister is a best friend. My sister or best friend would not sleep with my man, and I would not sleep with hers.
I cannot do poly because I am very territorial. I love too hard and fall too deep. I care too much and if some girl broke my Daddy’s heart, all shyness and caution would be thrown to the wind, and I would be ready to break her face. I don’t want to feel like I have to compete with someone else; I had enough of that as a child. I don’t want to feel like I have been replaced or devalued. Abandonment issues will do that to you.
I need to know that Sir is happy with me as his only, that I am the one who has made Daddy smile. I need to know that I am enough.
Call me crazy, possessive, insecure or selfish if you like, but I know myself. It may work fine for some but I know it is not for me. That is one thing I don’t need to try out to be sure.
I don’t want to share my Daddy. I want him to myself.
This post is not meant to offend anyone or tell them how they should run their relationship. Please understand that in no way am I saying that poly is wrong. However, I am saying that poly is wrong for me.